Jean 金愛說話！

Now is a beautiful morning after Xmas.  After drinking 4 glasses of wine last night, I feel tired and sleepy now. But my body clock leads me to wake up.

I had a lot of thoughts recently. I don't know, maybe the weather causes my emotions to change. But I really have to thank a lot of people who appear in my life of Canada.

Actually, I want to do whatever I want in December. Because I am gonna leave from school. U can say that I am afraid of leave or fear of seperate.  Yes, I am.  That's who I am, I am emotional and sensitive and love to cry. I am happy, I cry; I am sad, I cry; I am stressed, I cry. I just don't want to pretend to be strong. So, I extend my program, 1 month more. I 

I've been living here with my hostess for 6 months.  I am  lucky because I knew a nice family. I know somethimes there are some disagreeable things or unpleasant feelings between each other. But it's normal, people get along with people, having some fractions isn't a big deal. Once u over it, u might get much closer with each other.

Last night, I was crying. Crying wasn't that bad for me. It reminds me all the time that I shouldn't do something or I should do something I won't regret in the furure. I made a decision this week. I am gonna move out. Not because I want to, but because I have to.

I love u, so I was crying.

For some reasons, I have no choice but to do so. U never thought how much bravery I put to make up my mind.

When I reviewed my life in this six months, my face smiled and my tears came out. And then u will know ur true feeling straight from ur heart.

No doubt, I had a fabulous time with u all.

Also, I can't live with out friendship. My best friend whose name is anna, gave me Xmas gifts on Xmas Eve. I felt so warm and touched. Thanks Anna.  Thank u share  your experiences with me whenever I had a tough time. I know that your are gonna go back to Taiwan, I will be alone by then. But so far I feel that I am so rich. Because I have u, and I do like to spend my time being with u.

Moreover, Voula,  who is my adorable neighbour. She is funny, outgoing, easygoing, forward. We always laughed out loud when we met. 

I like her laugh, because it seems that it has a magic power, it could infect others then makes others be good.

I like ur personality, forward, direct and unpretentious.  Thanks for giving me such a fantastic gift. I appreciated it.

My hostess, Jill, who is like my mum. She is nice and easy to communicate with. I really like to talk things over with her whenever I face some hassles.

We talked a lot everyday, she made me feel that I am not alone. I can feel that she cares about me. Even though I am just a tenant for her. But I've never thought in that way. She concerned what's going on in my school and how I feel everyday.  I always share my feelings and some interesting things at school with her. Or I  told her my problems I didn't know how to deal with. She will give me some good suggestions or if she were me, what she would do.

I don't know, a image in my mind is the first day when I arrived at her home. We took my heavy suitcase together to upstairs in my room. I feels like it was yesterday. But actually the 6 months passed.

Anyhow, I cherish everything you did to me. I like everything u gave to me. I like everytime we got together. Thank u, Jill.

Babbi, see, she likes me. She slept soundly, didn't she?

Thank u, Babbi. Because of u, I change my attitude to cats. I didn't like cats before, I just don't like their behavior and the ways of deffense. 

But u are so cute and intimate. I know sometimes when u jumpped up on my bed, I always yelled at u and grabbed u down my bed. Sorry....

I like u, but I still can't share my bed with u, ha ha.. But u are so cute. Exactly. Thank u for loviing me. U are the first cat that I want to have. 

I remember my mom told me, "do not compare everything all the time. Just do what u should do and use a gratiful mindset to see everything, then u must find everything is beautiful and not as bad as u thought it was. On the other hand, because of this, u will bring a lot of lucks in. Your bad lucks will be gone unconsiously."

Yes, I agree with. Once you've been though something like that, and u will believe it.  See, I live in  lively place with a geart family and I spent 2 days getting my job (someone spent a month even more),  I got the student ID Card accidently then I could save 22 money per month ( but it was a mistake, so only me got it).  I am lucky, aren't I? I appreciated everything. And I will keep this mindset later on.

I told my mum that I wanted to be responsible for my life, so I wanted to do a big event before I am 30.  Then I came to Canada, I am satisfied with my verdict so far, because I pretty enjoy now. 

Life is short, how to make ur life different it's up to u. U can dominate u life, going bad or going good only has a fine line. :)