Jean 金愛說話！

2018.12.22 喜劇收場 Happy Ending 

因為最近真的受到滿多的傷心事和人生感慨滿多的，

總覺得人生苦短，真的要把握當下，及時行樂，認真工作、賺錢之餘也不要忘記好好的對待自己

我是個無聊的人，對生活吃喝玩樂沒什麼重視… 

所以當我努力想我獨愛美式漢堡(不是連鎖的、McDolnad, Burger King....) 和甜點，

離考試完也差不多一個月了了，一直說放榜後要來寫考試心得的我，一直procrastinate it...... Sorry... (很想打英文版的，我常打英文後，打中文好難過…）但是因為考完後又發生一大堆關於入學的事…balah... balah... balah... anyways, 我現在才能抽空來寫。

這篇絕不是臭屁文，這篇只是我對自己、家人、上天朋友及英文的感謝文。

九月才剛從加拿大(我最愛的城市，多倫多）回國後，我一心想再回去，但因為我想再提升我的能力和競爭力，所以不想只是去念語言和打工(因為己在那經歷一年快半了）。

面對許多國外朋友、外國人士說我英文很好，我都覺得那比較像好聽話，但從不覺得自己英文差的我，我挺想要挑戰看看我到底能再進步多少？我想成為面對外國人除了打屁聊天可以交流無礙外，是否能在未來學術方面、較重要/大、嚴肅的場合中，言之有物？

因此，我一回台灣，面對整個適應不良，不想出門，antisocial, insercure，甚至排斥台灣的情況下，花了短短六天，我決定我要考加拿大GBC研究所。一般有二種管道，一是考學校的入學考，二是持有TOFEL or IELTS 成績到達一定的門檻後，即可申請入學。我為了趕一月入學，只剩下不到三個月的時間，一邊找代辦，一邊辦申請，一邊念書。(這突中也發生很多問題 但是再扯下去，就離題了，後面再說）。

Now is a beautiful morning after Xmas.  After drinking 4 glasses of wine last night, I feel tired and sleepy now. But my body clock leads me to wake up.

I had a lot of thoughts recently. I don't know, maybe the weather causes my emotions to change. But I really have to thank a lot of people who appear in my life of Canada.

Actually, I want to do whatever I want in December. Because I am gonna leave from school. U can say that I am afraid of leave or fear of seperate.  Yes, I am.  That's who I am, I am emotional and sensitive and love to cry. I am happy, I cry; I am sad, I cry; I am stressed, I cry. I just don't want to pretend to be strong. So, I extend my program, 1 month more. I 

I've been living here with my hostess for 6 months.  I am  lucky because I knew a nice family. I know somethimes there are some disagreeable things or unpleasant feelings between each other. But it's normal, people get along with people, having some fractions isn't a big deal. Once u over it, u might get much closer with each other.

Last night, I was crying. Crying wasn't that bad for me. It reminds me all the time that I shouldn't do something or I should do something I won't regret in the furure. I made a decision this week. I am gonna move out. Not because I want to, but because I have to.

I am back from New York Trip, and it was so great. I have to thank Anna, who is my friend from Taiwan. But for her invitation, I wouldn't have this such a magnificent trip! I really appreciated u, Anna. I owe it all to you because u not only arranged all schedules beforehand, but also took care of me during the trip. If you schedule next trip, u can invite me. I am glad to keep company with you, it's my pleasure, too.

Day 1, 12.13.2012

Before we arrieved in New York, we made a joke to preface this journey. We missed the train because we talked a lot and forgot the time. What  ridiculous we are! Fortunately, we could take next but instead of. If our bus was the last one, our New York trip would be gone....

After 12 hours, we arrieved in New York and at subway station. To be honest, I don't like the subway.  Dirty and messy, I can't believe it. We were shocked by this scene. We thought the New York is a beatiful, clean, elegant city. But the trueth was opposite. Anyway, we headed to our hostel and decided to have a lunch first.

We were starving!! We ordered a meal for 2, and it was bargain! Only10.99 dollars and it tasted good. I like to eat rice and it was good. As u see in the picture, the quantity was too big to finish it. Due to  the feeling of full, we must have had to take a walk then.

September 26 is my birthday.  This is my first time to observe my birthday in Canada, in fact, I am not a person who care about birthday much.  So as a low-profile person, I don't want to celebrate it and others know this date as well.

In the beginning, I thought things will go as I thought.  But in the end, the opposite was not.  I had special memories here and I appreciated my hostess to take me to the Vietnam restaurant to taste the delicious food, then gave me the present.

You know what's the main reason that I don't want to observe my birthday?? Because I don't like the situation and the atmosphore.  I felt shy and I wouldn't know what I should say.  I thanks you of course but.... you know, I blushed and stunned.

Anyway, I ordered the beef noodle in the restaurant. I like it, absolutely.  I like the broth and the noodle, I havne't eaten such delicious food for days... I mean, the food as like as Taiwanese food. I miss them.

After that, Jill and Richared gave me the birthday present.  One was a cloth bought in Gap, the other one was crossword( she knew that I am a gambler...)

Sep.08, this is a spectial day for us.  Kaho, Seunghee, Yuri and I, the last event we do together.

Kaho is going to go back to Japan tonight, so we decided to wonderland to celebrate and see off her.  

In fact, I was not so happy as tired, I hadn't sletp well for three days.  So I felt so tired yesterday.  However, I was excited, though.

Here we are, wonderland!!  We met each other at York mills subway station at 8:40 then we took "Go bus" to the destination. It took around 30 mins to there.

And of course as you see, the weather was bad yesterday.  But we thought in the positive side that we didn't have to wait in a long line. ( Wonderland is very famouse for Canadian, there are thounds of people go there everyday!!!)  We bought the raincoat and started our course.

This week, as a matter of fact, has been a boring week.

But of course, it has some reasons. First, some of my friends travel other cities, such as Qubec, Vancouver and so on... I couldn't but wonder, why they have money to do so??  They said" because you can't go anywhere in winter in Canada, you have to go out as possible as you can."  Ok, but I have no money to do so, so I give up.

But I will go to the New york City one day.  Second, this week kind of a long week.  Some trouble happened this week, but I thought it will be better next week.  I hope.

Any way, I like to stay at home as usual.  Jill, who is my hostess, made the muffiens this week.

You could see the pictures as below, it's amazing for me.  But she said " just follow the steps as the recipy say".

This week, I did a lot of things.  Of course, I spent a lot of money.  But that's ok, because I will earn it back and I thought I should attend events as many as I can in summer.  Maybe in winter, there is only one thing I will do that is stay at home.

So, I went to the CNE( Canadian National Exhibition) this Thursday, this is Canada big party I thought.  

It doesn't let me down.  Actually, I thought it looks like Taiwanese Nightmarket.  Because there are games, food, cloths and accessories.  I felt so excited.

The first place I saw is a baseball game.  I considered it was a bit expense, 3 dollars for 2 balls.  But many young guys took a try, because it was a popular game here.  And I thought it was a good way to earn money, because you will try over and over, then your money will become fewer and fewer.  Absolutely, the stand will get a considerable profits.  

Then, we went to the OREO Deep fry stall.  In fact, we didn't know it, but the leader Andrea told us it was delicious and special, so Sakura wanted to try it.

This week, I have a lot of things want to say!  Not because I have a lot of plans this week, but because I have many wonderful experiences this week.

Ok, first, I share my weekend for you.  We went to the Street Festival on Eglinton West.  In fact, there are few people on the street.  of course is not crowded.

You could see the photoes above,  some entertainment facilities there.  And kids were happy in the air ball then played on the water.

Because they couldn't stand well on the water, they tried to sand up but always fell down quickly, the scene was so funny!!!

Go along the street, I saw a dancer daning on the street.  I don't know what's the dance name, but he really caught everyone's eyes.

Yes, this is my first time to go to the Nightclub.

Actually, I was not excited in the begininig.  But when I got there, if you still be shy or standed there then you are so lame!

That's right, I was so high and opened my mind to dance there.  I drank and danced with guys there, moved my body and put my hands up with the music.

Well.... I adimited, you must be touched by others, but it's normal in this such crowded place.  I also thought this was a good way to do exercise.  We keep daning for 3 hours, we sweated, panted.  The best of all, it's free on every Wednesday!!  Only paid your drinks.  It's awesome!! Fantastic.

I will go there to burn out calories and have fun next time.

I live in homestay now, the location near the Woodbine subway station.  Of course, woodbine beach is the place I must go.

David, Angelica, Thiago and I were going to the beach to take a look.  When we got there, there are a lot of people on the beach.  Some played the velly ball, others played the water or swum in the see and some others just llan on the sand under the sun in order to get suntan.  No matter what reasons, there are livily and crowded.  I like it and enjoy it.  Even got the suntan which is worth of it.   It's doesn't matter for me.

Besides the beach, we went to the park a lit inside.  There were some bands perfomed there, everyone got high and relaxed for a while.  What a nice moment we had!  At that monent, the music was playing the Brazil song. Thiago is from Brzail, he taught us how to dance "Salsa". OMG, I am ackward when seaking of dancing.... But it's fun, I still like this good experience.

If you though that's finished the event, then you were wrong!  There were a lot of vendors and bands on the whole woodbine street, you can taste different dishes if you want.  If you felt tierd, don't worry about it.  The Bar will offer you seats to take a rest.  And we were not exception, we went to a bar  to take a rest and drink.  We drink Beer instead of others alcohole, I had a bad experience with Tequilla, so this time I know how to order the drink.....

I leared a lot of things when I am in Canada. I learn how to dance, how to drink and how to get usd to going to the nightclue.  A lot of fun, but don't addict to it.

After the Marcus, today we see off another guy whos name is Fabio.

He is cute, lively and talktive.  Our class because of he get a lot of laughings.  

So sad, he accomplished his courses and head to Brazil this Sunday.  Good bye my friend, we will miss you!!

Please remember TO keep in touch! And hope next time when I travel to the Brazil, you could be my host to visit your country.

See you~~